Please be aware I cannot draw! And I didnt draw the body.... only hair and accessories....I had no crayns either

New Life

I had been part of the Marauders for some time when fate intervened.
LTHamlet and I were having some drinks in the bar at planet Manhattan. It was evening and, another day of exploring had gone by in a most pleasant manner. Feeling satisfied as I had been for some weeks, I was unaware of what was about to happen. Of the challenge about to be presented to me.
LTHamlet received a call from the command centre. Someone wanted to hire 2 Marauders as escorts to the Unknown 2 system. We were to meet the man outside planet Manhattan where he would be waiting with his ship. No more details were needed. Marauders do not involve themselves in the personal matters of their clients.

We found the man’s ship outside the planet and Hamlet agreed on the payment. 1 million credits for the escort. We did not ask the man’s name. There was no need. I knew that ship. I knew the man who drove it. I could feel it surfacing again. The hate, the anger, the anguish, the loss. Sonal. Had it been destiny that brought him to me? Was there a force helping me? Or was it just leading me back to my other life? It felt so long ago and yet… so present still. I did not know what to do or if I could control myself. I looked at my hand, it was on the trigger. I could end it right then and there. Take him out. End it. Stop. My heart screamed at me to do it but, my mind whispered. The whisper became louder and soon it was a steady speech.
“Hamlet”, I called, “It’s TATA.”
Hamlet sighed. He instantly knew what I was thinking and feeling.
“Liliana”, he said, “We must do our job. We are Marauders. You are a Marauder now. Don’t go back to Hate. Free yourself. You must.”
I new he was right, but still my hand was on the trigger.
“Lets go. I am above this.”, I said, “I am over this, hate will not consume me. I promise.”
And so we go with that man. Alaska system, all well. Omicron Gamma system. A BL there but no problem. We reached the unknown 2 jump and I start to think about everything. Sonal. As TATA gets in formation and mimics my every move I wonder. What would he do if he knew who I was? What would he think? I let out a surprising laugh. I realize I do not care. This man’s actions and feelings are nothing to me. I don’t even want to consider them.

We reach our destiny, Planet Primus and TATA docks. LTHamlet and I wait outside for him and, for our million credits. Hamlet congratulates me for my strength of min. TATA comes out and, Hamlet asks for the payment.
I knew it. I knew this man was not to be trusted.
As TATA runs we pursue, but the unbelievable speed of his ship is to much for ours’. Omicron Gamma, the BL is waiting. He says: “Death to the false Emperor!”. What does he mean? This is TATA’s new allegiance. This is his plan. To lead the Marauders into a trap. As he runs and, we hear his laughter over the intercom, we fight the BL. I can’t stop feeling disappointed. I feel I should have just shot him down. But now, it is not because of desire for revenge. He messed with the Marauders. That I cannot allow.

As we go back to Manhattan, Hamlet tells me that now we must find TATA and prevent him from doing harm to others. I say we must. I feel I must. I feel it for the right reasons.
My eyes do not change.

Chapter 3

I was exploring New Berlin, facing old ghosts when LTHamlet called. Him, Gabriel Angelos and Wicked were waiting for me in Babylonia. They had located TATA and thought I should be there. I couldn’t help but rejoice at the thought of finding TATA. I was also proud that the 3 admirals had thought of me. I quickly changer course and proceeded to Babylonia. The Admirals were waiting for me at the gate. They were standing guard to prevent TATA from fleeing once again.
Such a sight they were in their imponent ships ready for battle. Looking at them I was reminded once more why I am so proud to be a Marauder. Wicked, our Trade Fleet Admiral, a wise leader, protector of our transports. Admiral G_A, our strike fleet leader who so many times saves us from disaster. And Admiral LTHamlet, our Monarch leader, he is the one I am indebted to. One day I hope to repay him.

I had to dock before anything. I needed supplies for the battle ahead. I went to Merodach. I saw it. His ship. It was right there. In range. A quick battle raged inside my head. My hand slipped to the trigger. I called the admirals to me. I was going to wait for them. I didn’t.
As TATA’s ship burst into flames I remember thinking: If Sonal was watching me. If he would feel bad for what I did. If he would disapprove. Sonal was never haunted by a conscience like I am. He was rejoicing for sure. TATA ejected and I turned around. I was going to leave him floating in space. I was done. However, I saw Admiral G_A tractoring him into his ship. I asked why.
“You need closure”, he said, “You need to hear what he has to say. You must know why. We don’t want to see you suffer for your past anymore.”

I agreed. While LTHamlet and Wicked went on exploring, G_A and I went back to Manhattan and took TATA into Commander Volker's Battleship. He would meet us there. G_A left when we arrived and there was only me, Volker and TATA. He sat TATA down on a chair in one of the rooms. He looked bewildered, dirty and scarred. In spite of all this, I must admit he did not look scared. He probably had been trained for those kinds of situations.
I looked into his eyes and saw signs of recognition. He knew me, he remembered me. He smiled at me. Why? Why would he smile? He knew who I was, he was aware of what I could do to him. I was taken back by that smile. Cmd. Volker intervened. He stared TATA in the face and asked him what his name was.
“TATA”, he said, “Coronel TATA enemy of all that is good and, friend of the darkness.” He said this looking at me and, the Cmd. slapped him.
“Look at me when I’m talking to you”, he said, “Tell me why you lead the marauders into a trap. What is your allegiance?”
TATA looked at me again, already a bruise was forming on the side of the face the Cmd. had slapped him on. I signalled the Cmd. it was ok.
“I have no allegiance any more,” TATA said, “I fight for myself. It is true Commander Liliana, yes I know you, I fought with the Reavers once. They paid me well.”
“Paid you?” I asked, “Paid you to kill my fiancé? To destroy my life?” I couldn’t control myself, I started to shake and I shook him as well.
“Yes, paid to kill Sonal.” He smiled again as he said this, “To kill him alright.” _He uttered a laugh. I sensed something was not right. Something was not being said.
The Cmd. must have felt the same. As he punched TATA it was certain he had.
“Say what you mean. Just come out and say it!” He yelled.
TATA had blood running down his face, but still he smiled. I had the urge to wipe that smile off his face. Volker held me back.
“What? Say it!” I yelled at him. “Say it!”
TATA paused. He seemed to be enjoying the moment.

“Your dear Sonal. Your beloved fiancé”, he started, “is not as pure ad wholesome as you think. And he absolutely does not love you.” He laughed.
I was outraged. How could he even… Wait. What had he said? Is? Does?
“He is dead.” the Cmd. said.
“Dead!” I yelled.
“Dead you say?” TATA asked, “Dead? Says who? You? The Reavers? Your dear dead Hel mother? Did you have a funeral? Did you find his body? Why do you say he’s dead?”
I almost could not move. Sonal alive? Impossible.
“He would have come to me… contacted me…” I said, feeling for the first time, tears trying to appear.

TATA laughed again. Volker shut him up.
Spitting blood TATA yelled at me.
“You stupid woman! He was with them, with the Reavers. He faked it. He is out there. Without you and alive!”

I was frozen. I could not move. I felt it was true. I ran out of the room. I felt so weak, so stupid, so delusional. I heard TATA laugh. Then he shut up. I heard muffled voices and then nothing else. I did see a pod being launched to space.
“I notified the authorities Liliana.” The Comd told me as he approached, “they will find him. I hope you know I don't like to resort to this kind of interrogations, but i felt it was the only way to get through to him and, you needed to know.”
“I’m ok” I said without being asked. I did not want to seem weak. It was obvious I was broken. Tears kept flowing and I was unable to stop them.
The Cmd. tried to confort me with his wise words, but I didn't listen. I couldn't. The shock was still setting.Volker stopped trying to make me feel better. He knew I snapped easily.
“I know where he is!” he said slowly.
“Who?” I asked in a weak voice.
“Sonal, your fiancé. TATA confessed after I persuaded him to.” he said.
“He is not my fiancé Cmd.” I said feeling recomposed, “He is dead.”

My eyes went red.

Chapter 4

As I jumped to New Berlin my thoughts wandered. I remembered happy days in Robrinda, the only happy days of my life that I can remember. I remembered Sonal and I talking about our future. I remembered my mother criticizing him. She doesn’t sound so wrong now. I also remember things I didn0t before, like Sonal visiting me at work even when I asked him no to. Times when I found him alone in my office. Times when I told him things I shouldn’t have. I was a fool. I also wondered what I was going to do and say when I eventually saw him. I must confess I was afraid. Afraid of what I could do. I knew what could happen but, I wasn’t sure I could take it.

When I reached Brandenburg station I felt my body getting tense. I had a strange feeling in my stomach like if my insides were out. I docked and decided to start looking for him at the bar. No one had seen him they said. I knew they were lying. He probably had threatened them not to reveal his position. I spotted a man in the corner of the bar. That was gesturing at me. I approached. He looked like a snake.
“You looking for Sonal? How much you willing to compensate me for the info?” asked the man.
“How about if I don’t break your legs?” I replied.
“Ok, ok.” He said recoiling, “No need for violence, I was just kidding.”
“Do I look like someone you cab play with?” I said menacingly.
“No, absolutely not!” he said, looking less like a snake and more like a worm, “The man you’re looking for is in his battleship near sector 5D. I work for him. My name’s Goram”
“Not for long you don’t.” I thought as I went away. I got into my ship and looked for Sonal’s Battleship. I saw it and requested to dock in it. As I heard his voice on the intercom asking who I was, I felt disgusted. I told him I was Goram in a snake like voice. He believed me, the fool.

He was in the control room with some other people. Employees, I thought. I could only see his back but I could already feel his discomfort. He was tense, almost trembling. He pressed the S.O.S distress signal button. He turned around.
“All of you, out now!” I demanded the others, looking straight into Sonal’s face. It was contorted with fear. I had found him. The others left quickly.
“Liliana” he said, “I can explain… you know I love you, still I do. I did not forget you. I had a mission you see? I’m undercover…” he went on.
As he tried to make excuses and deceive me I almost laughed. At the same time I felt like my world crumbled once again. He was showing himself a coward, not at all like the man I thought I had known.
“Please stop.” I said, “You must stop this. Stop talking… stop your stupid excuses.”
He stopped and stared at me. I followed the movement of his right hand to his belt. He was reaching for his gun.

At the same time I felt it. It was coming. Something I hadn’t felt for almost 12 years. I could feel Sonal’s existence in my bones. I could feel him breathing, I knew his thoughts, I felt his muscles moving. A vein in his arm burst. He clutched his arm. I felt another one in his leg burst. His heart accelerated. His neurons were racing, growing, turning off. I felt his blood boiling, rising to the surface, exploding. Everything burst. Everything was red and I recalled the other time when it had happened.

I was 12 and a group of Hel girls were harassing me because I was different. They kept calling me Bluey, Weirdo. I felt sad. I cried, I didn’t want to be different, it wasn0t my fault. I went home and told my mother. She told me it was my fault. That I should try to fit in and please the other girls. That I was different and, she wasn’t going to do anything about the girls because, they were only telling the truth. I went back to the Study Hall the next day and, they came back to annoy me. The biggest of the girls, who was still a lot shorter than me, came close and whispered: “Bluey, no one likes you. You are nothing. We all think you should be expelled. Your father must have been a Nuvem.”
I looked at her and felt it. It came. I saw her burst from within. The other girls screamed at the top of their lungs and, it was the last thing I saw before I passed out. I was expelled from the Hall but, nothing else happened. Mu mother pulled some strings. She didn’t look shocked or scared. She was almost proud. Now I think about it, maybe that’s why I reached the commander position. They were scared.

Then everything went black and, I passed out. I don’t know how long I was out. When I woke up I was in a soft bed and, a woman was standing next to me.